The Story of my Life

It has been awhile since I wrote about how I feel for Her, hasn’t it?  I’m wondering if I ever stopped feeling for her or if I was just using pine branches to sweep my emotions out of view?  I don’t think such things are within my grasp to understand or acknowledge, but I know I never fell out of love with Her.

We’re together again, if you can call it that.  It’s more of an information agreement that we’re for each other.  We probably won’t ever be official again until we can actually live together or near each other somehow.  That bothers me a little.  I’m no stranger to dedicating myself to someone, but I don’t like running in with only a vague sense of what our relationship will become, you know?  But back on topic:  I’m still in love with her, and from how she acts and what she’s been saying to me, she’s in love with me too.

I’ve been told that the third time is a charm; and I hope to goodness it is.  No more searching for me, almost every day with her has been happy, we’ve only had one argument and we made up very quickly.  Everything is going wonderfully.  How long will it last?  I hope forever.

She’s also been really considerate of the way I feel too, lately.  She’s been really kind to me, and she knows that I don’t like the concept of me not being real to her or part of her life, and she definitely points out that its not that way when it could be a misunderstanding.  I think, or hope at least, that we’ve really grown to understand each other’s feelings and mindset, and its the most wonderful feeling in the world.

I’ll have to write more later, other than that this post of love and merriment my mind is blank.  Hope to talk to you soon, though!

I really want to know because I’m just not that sure anymore.  It’s getting hard to tell whether the people that I think are my real friends are actually my real friends or not.  Well, except Yuki of course.  There’s never any doubt there.

I just don’t know about the rest, and things are getting really weird.

Amanda gets pissy at my really easily for almost no reason anymore, Kerry apparently now values whatever self-image she’s created over me and generally won’t even talk to me unless nobody will see her do so, and things are just weird with Doelle right now.  I’m not even sure why, but she’s just been getting on my nerves a lot recently.

All that on top of still somehow not being able to get a job.  I’ve applied to four of those big chain stores; Walmart, Kroger, Best Buy, HEB and haven’t managed to get any contact back.  I’m flailing about like a dying fish because there doesn’t even seem to be any programming work available right now.

My Tech Blog isn’t pulling in any revenue, and Family Crest is pulling in odd amounts of money from day to day.

I’d like to be able to fix up both Family Crest and turled and hope that they pull in some revenue, but it’s a lot of work, not to mention how badly I really want to work on PoKéQuesT, but with these weird mood-swings I’ve been having for the past week or two, things are really getting hard to handle.

Meh, I just need to think of something, I guess.

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Well, life is certainly new to me.  I can say one thing though.  My parents were always right when they told me that being an adult sucks, and I don’t even have to deal with the kind of responsibility that they have to yet.

Unfortunately, I’m unable to attend college this semester, and may not next, skipping at least one year while I try to get a job (source of income), a drivers license, and a car.  Hopefully I’ll be able to manage it with little to no trouble, but so far things haven’t quite been looking up for me.

However, they seem to be getting better now.  My Family Crest application on Facebook managed to bring me ~$60 in affiliate sales, and continues to bring in advertisement revenue.  I’ve applied for a job that sounds just like me in a bulleted list, and I’ve submitted a bid on making a small and fairly basic (to me) website for Music Lyrics.  Hopefully, I’ll win the bid and get the programming job.

Once I get a source of income, it shouldn’t be too hard to continue learning to drive and get a car, should it?